I am a man soon to be entering his late 50's in mid August at age 57... already outliving 2 out of 4 of my grandparents as well as 2 younger brothers by years, but I also have a lifetime of morbid obesity due to my officially diagnosed mild bipolar depression that I have been controlling thru medication and meditation.
Personally, I think I suffered from a lot of sad inferior negative minds to absorbed enough good karma over the decades to see its results in my later years in life.
I have been staying home to care for my born disabled wife and now been offered live saving weight loss surgery by Ohio Medicaid through ACA Obamacare.
Life was rougher before then.
For, in my past, I was denied because I, twice, have failed their psychological exams, but also it was not fully covered because my now former low wage slave employer's cheap sub par health care insurance, but now Medicaid is purposing this life saving surgery to me again. I guess I have improved over the years to be considered for this again, but I also want to be sure I can handle it not to mention having a long term plan if I am now planning to make it into the early 2020's, past my 60's, into my 70's and outliving also my own parents. The only real true reason I am still here is because of my wonderful wife of 16 years.
Therefore, I am going to take online courses to earn Meditation Certificates this spring so I can confirm what I learned over recent years as well as finish my official learning to hang the result on my wall to remind myself I can get thru post surgery. I am also simplifying my scripture study. No more re-reading the Bible and Book of Mormon over and over only not to completely get it due to my dull mind.
Then I will build up on my support of true real friends who will accept for who I am by either finding or starting a small private exclusive private meditation group as well as teaching free basic mindful meditation to keep up my good karma I must have earned in my life.
Thank you and God bless.
Friday, March 22, 2019
Tuesday, March 19, 2019
I am far from perfect.
I am far from perfect.
A lot of people told me so, but, thanks to our selected by the Electoral College -- not elected by the popular vote President Trump, they been exposed as mentally ill souls possessed by negative fear, hate, greed and, maybe, under educated stupidity of -- at least -- a third of US -- perhaps even more.
Doctors, psychologists and therapists officially diagnose me with mild bipolar depression that contributes to my lifetime morbid obesity. In more recent years, I am so much more in self control of my mind and forever soul through medication and mindful meditation that I am planning to confirm what I learned by earning a Meditation Certificate from the University of Cincinnati after years of improvment.
Then I will, officially and permanently, start a semi liquid plan protein shakes then -- perhaps weight loss surgery from the local University of Cincinnati Medical Centet for the rest of my life here on earth to match my body with the inner calm, joy and peace of my mind and forever soul after decades of self abuse as a reaction to the negativity of others.
Make no mistake: this is a forever project, but I learned more about our mad sad rigged society thanks to President Trump.
God bless America. We need it.
A lot of people told me so, but, thanks to our selected by the Electoral College -- not elected by the popular vote President Trump, they been exposed as mentally ill souls possessed by negative fear, hate, greed and, maybe, under educated stupidity of -- at least -- a third of US -- perhaps even more.
Doctors, psychologists and therapists officially diagnose me with mild bipolar depression that contributes to my lifetime morbid obesity. In more recent years, I am so much more in self control of my mind and forever soul through medication and mindful meditation that I am planning to confirm what I learned by earning a Meditation Certificate from the University of Cincinnati after years of improvment.
Then I will, officially and permanently, start a semi liquid plan protein shakes then -- perhaps weight loss surgery from the local University of Cincinnati Medical Centet for the rest of my life here on earth to match my body with the inner calm, joy and peace of my mind and forever soul after decades of self abuse as a reaction to the negativity of others.
Make no mistake: this is a forever project, but I learned more about our mad sad rigged society thanks to President Trump.
God bless America. We need it.
Monday, March 18, 2019
Meditation last instead of first.
In the past I have been diagnosed with mild bipolar depression with doctors, psychologists and therapists as well as a now late brother and his still struggling son -- my nephew -- all suggesting mindful meditation as I suffer from lifetime morbid obesity.
Years later, I taken an online Certificate course on Mindfulness Meditation Life Coach on what would've been another late brother 50th year to add on to my business certificate and over 30 college credits with such courses as my "B" grades in ...
I believe, if I, offically, started the Meditation first, or, at least, in college, instead of last in my life, I would have earned a real two year associate college degree instead of just a few certificates over my lifetime.
Oh well.
Such is my cautionary tale that is better than some people I know who had to die to achieve the inner calm and peace of mind and forever soul that I am hoping for during my last years of life here on earth.
Years later, I taken an online Certificate course on Mindfulness Meditation Life Coach on what would've been another late brother 50th year to add on to my business certificate and over 30 college credits with such courses as my "B" grades in ...
- Business Mathematics at the Community College of Rhode Island.
- Advertising,
- Political Science,
- Public Speaking that I see more of an average balance of a D grade in Salesmanship.
- Marketing,
- Retailing,
- English and writing too.
I believe, if I, offically, started the Meditation first, or, at least, in college, instead of last in my life, I would have earned a real two year associate college degree instead of just a few certificates over my lifetime.
Oh well.
Such is my cautionary tale that is better than some people I know who had to die to achieve the inner calm and peace of mind and forever soul that I am hoping for during my last years of life here on earth.
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