Lord, I am amazed I didn't kill anybody... including myself.

I am 56 year old white male who dropped out of high school because of lame teachers and bullying students.

I outlasted a lot of negativity.

I outlived a lot of family and friends.

I been told to be God fearing, but, to be honest, from what I read in The New Testament, I thought of the Son of God to be forgiving of all our flaws and sins which is good because I met a lot worse souls than myself because for over 50 years. For, I can remember nothing but negative criticisms from people my own age at the time to sad adults who act like they barely graduated high school to the educated who treat me like I am below them. I got this from even my now passed own parents whom I really don't miss as much as I should.

I tried to prove myself by...

• Earning a G.E.D. to bypass low grades, lame teachers and a lifetime of bullying students.
• Graduating college with a one year business diploma -- although barely with mostly Cs, but rare Bs in "advertising", "business math", "politics" and, to my true amazement, "public speaking" too.
• Then I transfered most of my college credits to Miami University of Ohio -- where a past President and soon to be past Speaker of the U.S. House graduated.

Yet, afterwards, I worked 10 years in retail mostly in my lame birth city. Then I moved to the nearby big city of Cincinnati Ohio USA hoping to find more intelligent and mature enough people, but I decided to be a security guard for 16 years where I passed 31 online courses and earned a 10 year award from my security guard employer. I just could not find anything else better.

Yet, I became sad and depressed because I was working 6 to 7 nights week after week with no hope for my future until I finally found real true friends who will accept me for who I am when I met the happiest Mormon Missionary I ever met as well as a wonderful woman who understands me as I accept her.

In my end, when God asks me to explain my actions and thinking here on earth, my defense will be simple: "Lord, you should be grateful I did not kill anybody ... including myself."

Meditation helps.

If I, officially, knew about it decades ago I may have graduated with an actual college degree and running my own business, organization, store or meditation studio.

As is, my only realistic dream and goal now is to join or start my own small exclusive private meditation group with friends who will accept me for who I am.

Thanks and God bless.

Late 2018: the return of a little bit of sanity in an insane rigged society.

Hello.

It is mid November 2018. After a few years of the negative stupidity of our so called selected not elected President of the United States of America, the more postive smarter Democrats gained control of the U.S. House to control the insanity and save our health care and social programs that we earned putting up with decades of low wage slavery in our mad sad rigged loser society.

Back in my reality: My born disabled wife is at the Drake rehab center of Cincinnati Ohio because she is recovering from very rough that it should have been gall bladder surgery. I hope she will be home soon because it is my calling in life to care for her. It was not like I was offered me any better to do in life.

For, after 56 rough years of life and decades of putting up with negative inferior minds of fear, hate, greed and under educated stupidity plus low wage slavery after earning a GED -- after a rough time in high school, and then, barely, graduating with a one year business diploma, a rare "B" in political science and a real estate course later, but I been blessed because I outlasted most negativity in my life, two of my younger brothers and most family.

Therefore, I will say, in my end, I could have been better, but I also could have been worse in our mad sad rigged society that seems to favor money and power over life.

I have been trying mindful meditation in more recent years and my only realistic dream and goal now is to be picky with family and friends who will accept me for who I am, but I can tell you this is a forever project that will take me into the afterlife and, maybe, into future lives.

So, I say to you: better than me. Meditate early in life, read, learn and vote smarter than all the negative fear, hate, greed and stupidity.

The $tain of President Donald J Trump ...

I feel so blessed.

I am alive to witness the best epic educational entertaining historically lesson of karma ever. For what you do will reflect upon you. Even the rich are not capable of escaping this. Learn as you watch how this man slowly unravels over the next few years.

I will give Trump credit: HE has exposed our stain of negative fear, hate, greed and under educated stupidity, but the Holy Bible tells of the final fate who respect these values ahead of life, especially of those less fortunate.

For HE was selected by the Electoral College to be President of the United States of America, but not by the official national popular vote over a more experienced woman. This is a sad fact of history that was exposed to the rest of humanity. 

Yet, some people can not accept this because they voted for him for the same exact negative reasons humanity got to this point.

Still, repentance is good for the soul.

I would love to see America regain its sanity, be better, improve, meditate, read and vote much smarter every few years instead of just barely every four years for President because if you wash our flag the stain will eventually fade over history and time.

Thank you and God bless.

Dreaming of being a BILLIONAIRE is tiring.

Hello.

I love America: a place where we can buy a $2.00 Mega Millions ticket so I can officially dream of winning $1,600,000,000. That is just over a Billion and a half dollars.

Yet, now that I am dreaming with actual hope of achieving -- keeping in mind the odds are still I will still be who I am tomorrow -- I am realizing that being very rich would be very hard work of spending so much money.

My wife, Sherri wants to be a crazy cat lady with a cat shelter ranch. I also would not mind a shelter to teach mindfulness meditation to homeless young men who can help take care of all these cats, maintain the ranch too. Another dream is to move into Disney World.

I also would like to take an official meditation course, build on my over 30 college credits and then earn an official associate degree at a local community college as I seek to sleek and re build my body for another few decades as I still try to establish my small exclusive private meditation group for true family and friends who will accept me for who I am.

But, do I really need a over Billion dollars for all this? I doubt it. I rather win a far smaller amount such as one hundred dollars or two for a brief shopping trip. After all, I have been an official college graduate for 34 years now and I got my college level meditation DVD and CD courses in my own home.

Can't I start a go fund me page for this? Would you give to such a project? Do I want you to? I may let you know. Or I may not.

Anyway, wish me luck?

Thank you and God bless.

Fanasty vs my low wage slavery.

Hello.

I shouldn't have much to complain about these days. For I am content and comfortable staying at home caring for my born disabled wife. I outlasted all my negative naysayers with mad sad inferior minds -- whom I proved myself to only for them never to be satisfied -- and I out lived most of family and friends -- including 2 younger brothers.

In other words, I could have been better, but I now know I also could have been worse too. In my advance years, my only realistic goal is to my meditation practice with true friends that actually accept me for who I am.

Even after I graduated from college with a one year business diploma I could not get anything better than 6 or 7 days a week in low wage slavery. For although I got the education, not one employer would give me a chance to prove myself until I met my wonderful wife through her church and devoted my life to her instead of low wage slave overseers.

Now, thanks to the hateful greedy President Trump and his sad pathetic supporters, I now can blame our sad rigged society for me not being better because there are just a lot of stupid people out there that he has exposed that I moved to the nearby big city 24 years ago to get away from their negativity and that is why I am blessed to be alive to witness the best educational entertaining historically epic lesson of karma ever in human history as I am proud to say I did my best to prove myself better than negative inferior minds .


Thank you and God bless.

My wife is my only reason for being.

Hello.

I am very blessed as well as content and comfortable because of my wife. For she is the reason why I am still alive in my mid 50's as two of my younger brothers, both of my parents and all my grandparents are in my past as well as her family.

My wife saved me from a sad depressing life of low wage slavery after graduating one year of college in business management then 10 years in retail before 16 years as a security guard -- passing 31 of their online courses and earning a 10 year award to prove myself and their sad pathetic incompetence.

I blame others for me not able to be better and I am not sorry one bit about my tone because they have proven their inferiority over time. I only trust my wife and those she trust because too many people have dissapointed me more than I could ever dissapointed them.

Now I am trying to achieve inner acceptance, calm and peace that my past family had to die to achieve as I improve my mind and forever soul through prayer and meditation with books, CDs, DVDs and notes. My only realistic dream is now to find a few true friends to help me with my exclusive small private meditation practice who will accept me for who I am.

Anthony "Tony" Dale Eversole: 1962-202_.

Hello.

I was born August 13th, 1962.

When I was younger I noticed whenever my birthday fell on a Friday the 13th, then a bad luck event happened. Sometimes, a death in the family, but, in the 21st century, I had more family deaths despite no unlucky days. That may change on Friday, August 13th, 2021.

On well. I lasted 50 years longer than I thought I would have. For almost 20 years ago I started a cremation plan not really expecting to be alive deep into the early 21st century, but I am now, honestly, amazed to be alive in my mid 50's and 16 months until the year 2020: a year I was not expecting to get to because a part of me has been wanting to die since I can recall.

That has been well over 50 years now despite proving myself by earning a GED and some college. Yet, I have not only outlived not only both of my parents and two younger brothers, but I'm now reaching the age my grandparents started dying. I will be in my late 50's in the early 2020's.

Now, the only reason why I am still alive is I stay home caring for my born disabled wife who not only saved me from a sad depressing life of low wage slavery, but has given me reason to improve my forever soul through mindful meditation that I had doctors, psychiatrists and therapists either suggest or agree with, but I doubt I want to live to 2030. So, I have narrowed down my obituary.

But I also want witness Trump being exposed as mentally ill so his sad supporters will also be labeled and get the help they need for their poor lost souls.

Thank you.

I feel so blessed.

Hello...

I feel so blessed.

25 years ago I decided to move from my birth city to the nearby big city of Cincinnati, Ohio with no regrets ever since.

I am now in my mid 50's. I am reaching the age two of my grandparents died. In 5 years, I will have outlived all 4 of them. I used to be oldest of 4 boys, but I have now outlived two younger brothers as well as my parents.

I am not only still alive, but able to, finally, improve my bipolar depressed mind and soul because of my wonderful wife whom I met through her Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints that I, officially, joined 15 years ago. If it was not for them I probably would not be here coming toward the year 2020: a date I never thought to dream of decades ago.

Before I met them. I proved myself to the sad negative unreasonable naysayers by earning a GED and a one year business college diploma. I transferred most of my 35 credits to Miami University of Ohio. Then I worked 16 years as a security guard after working 10 years in retail to find I can't stand the public.

I gave up on our sad rigged society years -- if not decades ago. I been staying at home caring for my born disabled wife for years now. We have a delightful cat who makes me laugh and living in a very comfortable place that I earned through years of low wage slavery. My realistic dream and goal for the rest of my life and forever soul is improving my inner self acceptance, calm, enlightenment, joy, open mindedness and peace through prayer and meditation practice.

I may also start my own small exclusive private meditation group of true friends who will accept me for who I am.

Thank you.

The best advice I can give anybody.

Hello.

I want to give you the best simple advice that I can give such as ...

• Try prayer and mindful meditation for at least 5 minutes a day before anything else.
• Read the Bible if nothing else.  
• Pray and respect others -- even inferior lessor minds. For it may not be their fault.
• Vote smarter. For better social programs that we earned putting up with low wage slavery as well as elimating educational and medical debt. It can be if the true majority votes.

But I also want to prove to you that my advice is best of the best education and personal experience that I earned in over 50 years of life in our sad rigged society by listing my accomplishments of ...

• A G.E.D. -- instead of a high school diploma to bypass the effects of bullies who had to make themselves feel better as well as lame teachers.
• A one year business diploma in community college that I transferred to Miami University in my birth city of Hamilton, Ohio.
• Ten years in retail -- highlighting in unofficial  training for a small convience store Assistant Managment postition in a company that no longer exist.
• Passing 31 online courses for my security guard employer that I earned a also earned a 10 year award.

I know what I am talking about. If you disagree with me it really is not my fault. For some of us can't be helped. All I can do is give advice. It is up to you to be smart enough to do so.

Thanks and God bless.

My 5 year plan into my early 60's in the early 2020's...

For the first time in my life I am actually making a 5 year plan, but this plan will put me into my early 60's: an age my grandparents never achieved as well two my younger brothers -- going into the early 2020's. I even got a 16 month calender for the rest of the 2010's going into 2020. Among my list of realistic things to do and accomplish by the early 2020's will be ...

• Confirm my mediation by earning certificates to compliment my past college business certificate and 30+ credits...
• WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY..!!
• Reviewing the Holy Bible...
• and the Book of Mormon through lessons. I want to know favorite scripture that influence my life and will influence my meditation practice to mentor and teach others.
• Return to the Louisville Temple.
• Be sure past family has been baptized.
• Visit German village in Northern Kentucky. 
• Visit Union Terminal in Cincinnati.
• Take in another Cincinnati Reds game on what would have been my youngest brother's 50th year and the Red's 150th year.
• Visit my birth city of Hamilton, Ohio, USA.
• Take a respectable meditation course? Maybe thru the nearby University of Cincinnati to add onto my past college accomplishment? In the meantime, I have CDs, DVDs, books, notes and online resources on my smart cell phones to help me improve.
• Declutter and get rid of junk in our lives to...
• Upgrade to a better more convenient flatter place to live where I do not have to take a public bus or a car to get basic food and supplies. Even if we have to move closer to surviving family.
• Focus on my mindful meditation practice, for the rest of my life here on earth, to the point of self acceptance, calm, confidence joy and peace to be very selective private group and invite family and true friends as well as mentor young adults who will truly accept me for who I am. No more lowering myself to fake drama, hate, greed, negativity and stupidity of our mad sad rigged society. 
• Visit King's Island in a trial run for Disney.

Sherri wants to visit Disney World in Orlando, Florida, and visit my still living brother who lives near there, but I am not sure if we will be any good physical health capable of doing so unless I have successful weight loss surgery to make it possible. I would try the more local Kings Island in the Cincinnati Ohio area before just to see if we have any chance to do so.

That is my realistic reasonable give plan going into my seventh decade here on earth -- after the 60's, 70's, 80's, 90's, 2000's and now the late 2010's now planning for the early 2020's. I may even make it into the early 2030's -- outliving both of my parents and witnessing the first woman President of the United States.

Thanks and God bless.

Inferior minds and personal ambition.

Hello.

Our sad rigged society is broken. We have low wage slavery, education and health care debt. We deserve to learn and our life in peace and happiness without inferior minds using us to make themselves feel better, but I found I am capable of doing much about.

I used to dream better. I dreamed of being a rich successful U.S. Senator and businessman. I even, officially, graduated from college with a one year business diploma then transferred my credits to Miami University of Ohio, but then low wage slavery got in my way. Oh well. Maybe I been blessed in this toxic society. For I am content and comfortable now. I just want to remain this way.

Those dreams allowed me to try achieve a bit: running for Council and Mayor in my birth city, being elected to a local Democratic party post -- twice and leading a group trying to help encourage a United Nations flag display at a local International Friendship Park, but it is not my fault that I was not able to lower myself and my forever soul to hateful greedy judgemental inferior negative minds.

Karma has gotten to them anyway: my birth city, the park and our current hateful greedy President are a disappointment as the city I chose to live almost 25 years ago in is a more enlightened generous smart and reasonable politically blue Democratic city.

These days, upon the smart advice of doctors, psychiatrists and therapist I have been trying mindfulness meditation as well as distant myself away from negative fake drama. It has helped me try to accept my true role in life and society as well achieve inner clam, joy and peace. For my only real true ambition left now is find a few true accepting family and friends who will encourage my meditation.

I don't know if this means establishing a public studio or just a small private group because I never could get along with inferior minds who I could never get along with. Yet. there are quite a few sad young lost souls who could use a free meditation lesson, but, more than likely, I am going to be very picky with my friends for the rest of my life.

How Trump was selected -- not elected President of the United States of America.

Hello.

First of all: Donald J Trump was selected President of the United States of America by the Electoral College not elected by the popular vote. HE lost the popular vote by almost 3 million actual real votes to Mrs. Hillary Rodham Clinton: wife of the former President Clinton, a twice elected United States Senator of New York and Secretary of State under President Obama.

So, how did Trump get to be President?

Republicans cheat by taking advantage of not only the electoral college, but of also the following negativity...

• Fear of change or loss.
• Desperation of keeping the life they have.
• HATE of those different than themselves.
• Jealous of others.
• Struggling with their below average IQ, intelligence, confidence, joy, peace and open mindedness. Probably struggling with high school and college without help from bullies and naysayers.

Those who did vote for Mrs Clinton are:

• More accepting of life in our society.
• Enlightening.
• More educated and intelligent,
• Confident
• Open minded,
• Joyful,
• Peaceful,
• Loving and respecting of others.

I have noticed this -- in one way or another all my over 50 years of active enough life from those who belittle others from being different in appearance, habits, lifestyle, speech and in open thought.

I have not included voters and minor party voting along with voting for Trump because it led to the selection of the hateful greedy and judgemental President Trump, but it is not too late for the smart ones to vote much smarter to balance the fear, hate and ignorance. I would not campaign nor vote for a minor political party if it would help negative views.

With a top G.E.D. score and a college "B" in politics, I know more than most voters, but, sadly, in my view of my 56 years of life, it is so true that some people can never be helped. This most includes who are still supporters of hate and greed after years of noticing it. It is my hope you will be better than this, through prayer and meditation plus read as much as you can and then vote much smarter at least every few years.

Thanks and God bless.

This C student hopes to end life a B student.

Hello.

Are grade on a curve? If so, we have a good chance. If not, we could be screwed. For we all cave into earthly dreams, habits, sins and temptations that I am always trying to avoid in my mind as well out in the real world, but, in this case I am writing about

• Getting an "A+" to age 100 and over or 
• An "A" being age 90 or over.
• Age 80 should be a B grade as 90.
• Age 70 is a B-.
• Age 60 should be a C+ grade as 
• 50 is a C. (3 of my parents' sons made it to this.)
• and age 40 is a C-. 
• Any age under 40 should be a D with nobody failing unless they did evil, but that is another grade I blog about later.

Of course, some people can't help how or when they die, but this should be taken into account as well the quality or how you live and what we done with our lives as well. Voting for Mr Trump should be a clue to this. Do you respect others? Or do you respect money more?

I hope that will be considered by who judges us in the afterlife. After all, the Holy Bible tells of our final fate. Be better. Be smarter.

Thanks and God bless.

Boomers: the worse generation.

Yes, that is how I feel because I was able to earn a GED then be an official community college graduate, with a one year business diploma, despite the stupidity around me that was finally proven with the selection of Donald Trump as President of the United States by the Electoral College -- not popular vote that Democrat Hillary Clinton won.

I pride myself on being a smarter and more open minded person who meditates and never voted for a Republican President since I been voting at age 18 in 1980. Yet, I have voted for my GOP Republican Senator and Congressman when I thought they were going to win anyway. This should be how everybody should vote: for the more experienced, intellgent, open minded and reasonable candidate.

Yet, I am seeing smarter and younger open minded enlightened people starting to vote and public education is catching up by requiring current high school students to pass the United States citizenship test before they can officially graduate. If they have trouble then they should their own parents, grandparents and ancestors on how they voted in the past. States are also passing law to try controlling politically bias gerrymandering in the future.

This is hope for the future that there will never be another hateful greedy and judgemental President like Donald Trump, but more needs to be done such as party superdelegates in both major parties and stronger and more logical state ballot laws and requirements such as showing past tax payments that Mr Trump never done.