I am a man soon to be entering his late 50's in mid August at age 57... already outliving 2 out of 4 of my grandparents as well as 2 younger brothers by years, but I also have a lifetime of morbid obesity due to my officially diagnosed mild bipolar depression that I have been controlling thru medication and meditation.
Personally, I think I suffered from a lot of sad inferior negative minds to absorbed enough good karma over the decades to see its results in my later years in life.
I have been staying home to care for my born disabled wife and now been offered live saving weight loss surgery by Ohio Medicaid through ACA Obamacare.
Life was rougher before then.
For, in my past, I was denied because I, twice, have failed their psychological exams, but also it was not fully covered because my now former low wage slave employer's cheap sub par health care insurance, but now Medicaid is purposing this life saving surgery to me again. I guess I have improved over the years to be considered for this again, but I also want to be sure I can handle it not to mention having a long term plan if I am now planning to make it into the early 2020's, past my 60's, into my 70's and outliving also my own parents. The only real true reason I am still here is because of my wonderful wife of 16 years.
Therefore, I am going to take online courses to earn Meditation Certificates this spring so I can confirm what I learned over recent years as well as finish my official learning to hang the result on my wall to remind myself I can get thru post surgery. I am also simplifying my scripture study. No more re-reading the Bible and Book of Mormon over and over only not to completely get it due to my dull mind.
Then I will build up on my support of true real friends who will accept for who I am by either finding or starting a small private exclusive private meditation group as well as teaching free basic mindful meditation to keep up my good karma I must have earned in my life.
Thank you and God bless.
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